Sigh... Can't celebrate Christmas with you any longer....

I don't know whether it's from peer pressure..
Or just over stress from over thinking about you...

Even winning in games that I used to like..
Just don't bring me the same satisfaction any more...

Always seeing you online...
I know the moment if I find you to chat, we will end up in frustration...
But do you know?
I miss you damn hell lot....

This hurts damn badly...
I really feel like dying off right now....

Came back over here..
To write out my feelings..
So I don't explode from them...

I miss you...
Do you actually think I would target another girl just because we broke up?
I still love you and you KNOW it's true!

How have you been?
You changed your display picture... It's very cute...
But I can't say that to you, since it only stress you up more...

How are you?
I ridiculously miss you a hell lot!
Hope you're doing great..

Sigh..
Seeing our old posts and pics....
This is really demotivating me to live on a life without you...

I don't know whether you're both just friends or not...
But seeing you calling others your love, saying good bye to them like that...
Hurts like hell...
Hurts like being crashed into a building head-on...
Sigh... Watching at the side like this sucks like hell...

But, it seems you are happy with things the way they are now...
I guess it's good that you are content and happy...

I'm still over here, stuck in the past..
Unable to let go..
Reminiscing over those happy moments that we had...
Sigh... I want my life to stop...

I feel so lifeless...
Even life, to me, seems so very dull...
Have you really already forgotten about me?

I would do anything.. To have you back into my life...
I would jump in front of a train for you...
I would even die for you... Sigh...

I'm trying every method to relief myself of this pain...
This emptiness...
This loneliness...

I still think of you... God damn!

I still check back my hotmail...

To see your old messages...

I still miss you...

I guess it can't be helped except by staying tough for you to see...

Even though I act tough..
I still think of you...

How are you?

Got sun burn from today's basketball exercise..
Still am thinking of you and praying for your well-being..

How are you??

Just back from a busy day...
Still am trying to keep myself busy every now and then...

Hey~

Am I this pathetic?
Do I not deserve the slightest respect?
Until now, I still blame myself and not you..

I still misses you...
Do you really have no more feelings for me??

I've stooped down to the point of "pathetic"...

Still curse myself for losing you...

If I can be of any help to you..
Please, just use me to your content...

Sigh...
I still don't feel alright....

Yeah...
We finally chatted a bit...
Although, it's a one sided conversation...

But it has calmed me down very much..

Sorry...

Being alone...
I can't help myself but to find you to talk to...
I hope you're not mad at me...

Guess what??

I'm learning basketball!!
So how are you??
I hope you're doing great :)
I'm doing as you requested...
Leaving you alone....
You know...
A friend told me, none of my friends can feel any good seeing me down like this...
So I'm putting up a tough front...
You can also rest assured :)
Win-win :3

Life just isn't the same without your presence...
So dull and meaningless...

How are you??

I hope you're doing okay.
Got back from a usual day...
Not that usual if I can't share it with you...

Good luck in your studies..

I really wish I haven't started this hobby...
Maybe it would be different for the both of us....
I would quit it without any hesitation if you have said so....

Lao po
I miss you so much...
I'm having so much stress....
And I can't talk to anyone....
I don't know what I did to deserve your absence...
I really really.. Seriously, I really miss you....

Imagining that I'm talking to you...
How are you?
How's your day?
How's your studies??
Have you been eating well?
Have you been sleeping enough? >_<
Gosh... I miss you.....

Seeing you on line yet can't go ahead and talk to you...
Such cruelty....

Life just isn't the same without you...

Came back from a dull day...
To wonder how are you doing...?
I hope you're doing fine...

Haih...
I miss you ...
I wanna talk to you....
But you will feel sad seeing me like this....
Oh god why.... Please give me another chance...

I hope in the future...
We can still be together...
I hope in the future...
We can still give ourselves a chance..

I didn't know I'm such a load of stress to you..
I'm sorry...
But I always think to myself that.. Better I still try to hold on our relationship...
Because I'm scared if I let go for a moment, you will really forget about me already...

Would it even mean anything if I quit everything else for you??

Lao po.... I missed calling you this...

Lao po... I still want you to be part of my life...
Lao po... I don't want to be separated from your life....
Lao po.. I miss you very badly...

But you said you'll be happier if you have nothing to do with me any more...
But the most painful thing for me to see is that you'll fall in love with another guy..

I really still am in love with you, truly and genuinely...
Won't you give us another chance?

I know you don't want me around..
But I miss you terribly...
I even dreamt about you..
The only moment which let me sleep in peace...

Ha...
I miss you...
I desperately am praying for your well-being..

I'm crying right now...
Thinking of you...

Saw you online in your whatsapp....
Wanted to send you a msg..
Before I press [send]..
Only to remember that you don't want me around any more..

Tried to make myself busy the whole day..
Just to end up coming back home to look at pictures of our moments together..

Sigh... I still miss you...
I don't know how to get over you....
What am I gonna do if I seriously can't get over you?

I can't sleep..
I miss you..
Wondering are you okay over there..
Wondering did you do good on your test..

Sitting in front of my laptop..
Thinking of you...
Cant' sleep nor do I have the appetite to eat....

Even when I'm eating...
I'm still crying over you....
I'm holding myself back..
Refraining from talking to you..
But I still miss you...
Oh.My.God.

Tried to have a usual long nap..
Just to wake up after only a while to think about YOU *cries*

My hour of darkness has begun...

Haih..
I can't stop thinking about you...
I keep ask myself what did I do wrong? *cries*

Still you..
I dreamt about the time we're cheerful and happy together..
This is all so sudden I just can't believe that it's even happening...
In the end.. I'm the one who lost it...

Why are you being like this?

Why?
I'm just wishing you the best...
Yet, you push me away....
So cruelly...
Why are you treating me this cruelly??
WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE THIS TO ME?!?!

I really don't know what to do...
I miss you a lot....
I still can't forget about you..
What can I do?
I lost you so suddenly that my life seems meaningless...
:'(