Sigh... Can't celebrate Christmas with you any longer....

I don't know whether it's from peer pressure..
Or just over stress from over thinking about you...

Even winning in games that I used to like..
Just don't bring me the same satisfaction any more...

Always seeing you online...
I know the moment if I find you to chat, we will end up in frustration...
But do you know?
I miss you damn hell lot....

This hurts damn badly...
I really feel like dying off right now....

Came back over here..
To write out my feelings..
So I don't explode from them...

I miss you...
Do you actually think I would target another girl just because we broke up?
I still love you and you KNOW it's true!

How have you been?
You changed your display picture... It's very cute...
But I can't say that to you, since it only stress you up more...

How are you?
I ridiculously miss you a hell lot!
Hope you're doing great..

Sigh..
Seeing our old posts and pics....
This is really demotivating me to live on a life without you...

I don't know whether you're both just friends or not...
But seeing you calling others your love, saying good bye to them like that...
Hurts like hell...
Hurts like being crashed into a building head-on...
Sigh... Watching at the side like this sucks like hell...

But, it seems you are happy with things the way they are now...
I guess it's good that you are content and happy...

I'm still over here, stuck in the past..
Unable to let go..
Reminiscing over those happy moments that we had...
Sigh... I want my life to stop...

I feel so lifeless...
Even life, to me, seems so very dull...
Have you really already forgotten about me?

I would do anything.. To have you back into my life...
I would jump in front of a train for you...
I would even die for you... Sigh...

I'm trying every method to relief myself of this pain...
This emptiness...
This loneliness...

I still think of you... God damn!

I still check back my hotmail...

To see your old messages...

I still miss you...

I guess it can't be helped except by staying tough for you to see...

Even though I act tough..
I still think of you...

How are you?

Got sun burn from today's basketball exercise..
Still am thinking of you and praying for your well-being..

How are you??

Just back from a busy day...
Still am trying to keep myself busy every now and then...

Hey~

Am I this pathetic?
Do I not deserve the slightest respect?
Until now, I still blame myself and not you..